Emotionally Slutty

You know you can describe yourself in a thousand ways.

One of my indistict characters to most is being Emotionally Slutty from time to time.

Ask my beloved; how many times has he watched me crying without any reasonable, distinct or sensible reason? Countless, he might answer.

Look, it's not that i'm proud of it, but when i feel close to someone, i can just open up and let my pride wither away, ie. crying for stupid stuff.

Yes, we girls cry during Beautiful Mind and Pretty Woman (coz such guy doesnt exist... and my beloved thinks Richard Gere stinks :( ) and dozens of romantic movies.

But how could i sob over Law and Order: Trial by Jury? it just doesnt add up.

You see, sometimes as a woman i feel extremely privileged. We always have excuses for our unstable emotion or deteriorating performance at one stage.

I always get away with the PMS excuse everytime i whinge on small stuff. And my extremely understanding beloved will comment no more.

And during this time, i can be so sook (i dunno how to spell the word, but my beloved always calls me this everytime i shed more than 3 drops of tears).   

When Friends series were over... i cried

When i saw a little boy in a mall being ignored by his mom ... i sobbed

When i saw the refugee and poverty ads on tv... geez... i changed my sheet

Even thinking about sad stuff that does not happen in real life can force a teardrop out of my eyes. ISNT IT PREPOSTEROUS? crying over virtual thing?... my mind really takes over my body.

Last time when i nagged about my life to my beloved, i had to wash my new towel because it's full of my teardrops and snort (ick@!#)...

I guess, despite my tough and independent exterior, plus my eternal claim of absolute loner...

i'm just a wussy pussy...